JADE PAINTS MY WORLD RED

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Guessed I'm back again to square one, been trying to hard to find what people call "friends".
My journey has been around the world and back to where I am again, as alone as I used to be 2 years ago when I first stepped into NP.
Funny thing about this is, I used to tell myself during the O Levels holiday:
"Willie, if you get dissed on in secondary school, live on, in poly its a new life with new faces. Do your best and start anew!"
Come to think about it, didn't really make much changes didn't it?
Maybe its the initiative, I always don't go talk to people or something. I have to admit, I'm very shy when it comes to talking to people, well as well as the fear of denial when you talk to people.
You know those type that can't be bothered with you when you TRY to converse with them? They just give you a short reply like YES or NO, and they freaking walk off like they don't want you close to them.
Its kinda sad though, I think I'm already part of the "OMG stay away from me" club.
Not friendly and I look fierce, period.
Well now let's move on, its a new year right?

Happy new year to everyone out there who still can't bear to leave the holiday moods behind!
Well I can't, its been a great holiday of 2 weeks and I havent gotten myself a good time to break down and rest.
As for funka, work hard people! I've seen so many powerful groups, sometimes I wish I have my own specialised group of people to work with. Like Terence's group, they all look really good as a team. Have to dig the whole entire singapore to find that combination of people. RAWR! Its so hard to get someone who can dance with me, I'm not saying that my team sucks, my team members are all valuable assets of their own genre of dance I second to that. Can't wait to get my chemical song choreography to be done, my only focus for now.
Been getting Isomnia for so long, what's worse than being alone at night till morning when the sun rises and you're staring at the screen thinking why I have no friends? WHY? WHY? Then you start banging your head then you go OUCH i think that will leave a mark.
Been through, done that.
I've read Fredy's blog just now and it really hit me about the "We all need the bad times or there'd be no good times.
A person wouldn't enjoy them if they didnt know what sorrow felt like."

How do people feel happiness when all they know is enjoying the times as it is meant to be. How would they feel when sadness weathered upon them unknowingly, would they understand the pain to feel the love?

Start once again from square one,
No friends.
No life.
A bad reputation.

The only difference that is currently surfacing. Its wierd to know you're running a bad rep when you don't talk to people at all yet they don't like you about something you never do but what they hear from other people's mouth.

Despite all this, lets see who or where should I start anew again.

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