RED the Unsociable.5488.
No one knows me.
I'm a hated person.
Love dance, the only thing that embraced me with open arms.
Love to eat, drink and do some sports.
Love to drive, getting license and a car soon.
"Jadey" Jade
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LINKS_____________________
Aloysius "Shindoz"
Seow Ting "Sentimental Ting"
Su Ling "Forest"
Yimin "Barley"
Lavone "One Lav"
Jannson "Beatbox Jing"
Darren "Big Man"
S Her Main "Shinno"
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Yokoi as Newstyle Judge for Juste Deboute
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I'm tired already, tried to talk but there's always no reply.
Waited to talk to people, but they all just seemed to disappear.
Finally thought I had some new friends, but its all in vain.
Looks like everyone moved on with their lives.
And I am the only one, still stuck at square one.
Not moving, unable to move, not knowing how to move on.
I feel like an old man now, being abandoned by family and friends.
Whats left is just a house and me, with an empty heart.
Loneliness, just can't stop repeating it.
How would anyone know what is loneliness, when all you do have is friends around you.
How can you understand and claim that you are lonely.
When you have so many fucking friends around you.
If that is lonely, then I can safely pronounce I'm a god.
Ever since I came back from my birthday chalet since 6.4.08, I haven't been going out.
The last time I finally went out for 2-3 hours was Saturday, 12.4.08.
During these whole time, I'm sitting at home.
Staring at the computer, trying to talk to people.
Play games to keep myself busy.
Arh, who gives a damn about what I write anyways.
I visit my own blog more than people do.
Constantly checking, hoping to reply as fast as possible.
But then no one gives a damn.
To them I might be just one hi-bye friend in their list.
But to me, they might be the only friends I can talk to.
Since the appreciation is not there, then what can I say.
I may always act fine and say its ok, or even laugh it off saying nevermind.
But I'm hiding it, all the hatred all the agony.
You guys never understand. Tsk.
Good night.
RED.
posted @ 11:50 PM |