JADE PAINTS MY WORLD RED

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Firstly let me predict some things alright?

Leon is probably having a high percentage of spying on my blog.
Because I wrote the url on friendster.
Being a cowardice he would probably stare at the posts.
And see what I am doing, and prevent it from happening.
Upon reading this, there is a 20% chance he will tag and provoke at me.
Because he has what I don't, yes thats right.
He has clara on his side now.

Probably gaining trust from her, he now proceeds to tie her down as much as possible.
"When you get successful, please remember to acknowledge me."
I would as much as I can, I will.
He's probably going to ask what clara said to me.

That could be the first prediction for now.

Second prediction.
All that clara told me that night, was just a lie.
Probably just to tease me and hopefully get into my good graces so she can enjoy free help with anything that she needs.
Probably just a help and ask thing, thats what she wanted.
And she'll probably be laughing off her ass with leon about what she made me feel.
Like "omg look at that fucktard he actually got so affected by what I say."
Hopefully that doesn't happen, if not I really am lost for words.

Third prediction.
She's probably studying and her handphones kept by her parents.
And at night she steal chances to play Audition and totally forget about msn.
Much less say me, ya like who the fuck am I to her.
I'm not Leon anyways.
They are probably playing together and after that she's tired and she went sleep.
And that would have been happening for 3 days and 3 nights and counting.
After the second night we talked, she probably got bored of me.
And now its back to her "DEAR" leon.
Whom she enjoys playing game with so much only.
I would dare say she didn't have much freedom?
I know her quite abit about her family stuff.
She probably won't even dare to sneak out.
Disastrous I would say.
But then again I know she's a nice girl.
Thats why I chosen to wait as long as it takes.
For her to notice me.
"You don't have to suffer in silence, should tell me how you feel all the time."
Erm, stop your yapping if you don't mean it ya?
I contact you like all the time?
Keep asking here and there I find it irritating myself already.
You'll always be here with me?
What you writing poem?
Was that a literature class you're taking with me that night?
If you really can't make it, tell me
Don't give me empty promises and disappointments.
I stare at the fucking phone so many times everyday.
Hoping one fine day I would fucking see your msg or anything.
But no.
I don't even know what you're doing, I can only feel that you're having a lot of problems now and you're worrying here and there.
That's all I can feel for you now.
Because you don't even bother to tell me anything, only what it happens.
So tell me, it was all a joke wasn't it?
I was dead serious.
I really don't know about you this time.
Was it materialism you're after?
Are you waiting for me to strike it rich?
Then you will consider?
Are other guys rich as well when you go with them?
Why do I have to be an exceptional choice.
Its like you look really down on me, yet look high on others.
I don't understand.
I want to heal my pain you just inflicted on me so badly a few nights ago.
and slowly start my silent pain all over again, till a few months later.
When the same thing happens.
I'll make you my last.
for real.

RED.

posted @ 9:27 AM |