RED the Unsociable.5488.
No one knows me.
I'm a hated person.
Love dance, the only thing that embraced me with open arms.
Love to eat, drink and do some sports.
Love to drive, getting license and a car soon.
"Jadey" Jade
TAGBOARD________________
LINKS_____________________
Aloysius "Shindoz"
Seow Ting "Sentimental Ting"
Su Ling "Forest"
Yimin "Barley"
Lavone "One Lav"
Jannson "Beatbox Jing"
Darren "Big Man"
S Her Main "Shinno"
INSPIRATIONS______________
Yokoi as Newstyle Judge for Juste Deboute
COUNTER___________________
I slept at 5, woke up at 7.
Slept again, woke up at 8 from a weird dream.
A dream that almost landed me in tears.
But I'm kinda relieved yet stressed that the dream happened.
Because dreams don't come true, but yet there's something called deja vu.
Whats the dream you ask?
I dreamt one guy came and pass a bag of gifts to Jade.
when I was walking with her at a shopping centre.
The bag of gifts included some greeting cards and balloons.
And she was smitten by it, saying, "Wha, this will be my new boyfriend."
Then I said, "Huh, like that also can arh? What about me?"
She replied, "Sometimes you have to give gifts once in a while what, you have meh?"
I said, "How you know I not preparing any? (I lied)"
Next thing I know, she disappeared from the dream.
I was on the floor in a curled up position lying there.
Heartbroken, and thats how I woke up today.
First time I have this kind of dream.
And I woke up feeling even more crappy.
Which is why I wrote this down, =S
So maybe now this dream's a warning to me, she might just go off with any guy.
So I need to cherish more and get her to appreciate.
Hmmmm, weird dream but its a good wake up call I suppose.
Performance starting soon, have to really buck up.
I have alot of stress now, so probably my LA Hiphop damn easy to choreo already.
Especially when I'm stressed and emotional I have alot of ideas and I wack the choreo easily.
Can't think too much now, have to dance.
Hopefully I will forget everything and I know my roots.
After all, I love dance alot but recently she's on top of it already.
=)
I mean is there a need to say it out?
Yimin's telling me she can see what kind of person I am.
But Jade told me something I will never forget, something thats the most stressful to anyone who hears it.
"I don't even give a damn if you don't mean something to me."
"be glad; you affect my mood because you mean something to me."
Its not a good thing to hear that, maybe she rephrased it wrongly.
But to me, only way to describe is my heart drop down already.
Really dropped off at that point, its like it is not important what I feel.
Everything is about her, she made it sound like she can just fk care anytime.
Because I'm nothing in her eyes.
I'm not the best anyways.
Even if I try to be, who would appreciate?
NRA
WCO
RED.
posted @ 6:13 PM |